October 31st, 2010

A night to remember...

Wel its halloween and I am excited, alot has happened in the past month but it all comes down to what happened last night and what will happen tonight *wink*.  Last night a sweet friend of mine picked me up and took me on a girls night out on the town.  She showed me alot of Phoenix and even took me out to dinner, which by the way I strongly recommend eating at Ticoz Resturaunt in Phoenix!  I was overly nervous that night because the last time I went "out" was my 21st birthday and even that was just to a crappy bar.  Dinner was great and the atmosphere was priceless, the staff was extremely friendly and over all people just seemed to be having a really good time all around.

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October 30th, 2010

Kill Bill Patrick

Ok I'll start with saying that this post is really going to be nothing more then a rant.  So if you wish feel free to avoid this post, however if you wanna see me rant and laugh at someone's expense whom deserves it.. read on.

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October 17th, 2010

Phoenix, to start anew

Hi all, sorry I havent posted in a week but alot has happened.  Most transgender end up moving to start a new life once they have begun transition, sad to say its sometimes not an option.  For me it was moving to Arizona, someplace no one knows me, someplace I wont be ridiculed by people (family) whom are to stuck on the past and unwilling to be accepting.  For a life change, starting completely over whats more fitting then Phoenix, the name itself is what I am refering to.  Phoenix, to be reborn, and thats precisely what I am doing.  To start I'd like to say how much I love Arizona!  No more cold days, no more persistant nonstop rain, and no more humidity!!  Ok maybe its not for everyone but I love it here.  Currently I am seeking support/social groups in Phoenix to be a part of, I really need more friends and I need to get out.  I'd love to go to a club with a group or girls and just enjoy the night!

We are still getting settled in and I havent found much time for my computer, poor computer, he must think I am cheating on him.. ok there goes my dry sense of humor.  Anyways I'll blog alot more soon, just need time to get settled and then get my groove back.  On a side note my hair is gorgious! its alot longer and I cant stop playing with it, I love being a blonde!  Also I have noticed considerable breast developement (as if they needed to keep growing) I was a small c now i'm a well fit C and taking great shape!  Anyways for anyone trying to get a hold of me remember my email addy is Saraphiene@live.com

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

Love yas!

Sara

October 10th, 2010

Moving Day

Hi all, just posting to let everyone know whats going on.  You probably wont see me around for the next two weeks because we moved from Oregon to Arizona.  The move was actually quite stressful as most of you can imagine from my previous posts discussing the idea of moving and why.  Two months ago we had decided to move and we told my mom two weeks in advance so they could spend time with us and say good bye etc, yea its hard for anyone to see family move away, but my external family (mom, sister, etc) flipped out!  They tried holding an intervention to brow beat me into staying!  Coarse thats how they force me to do anything I dont want to, they verbally beat their ideas into you.  Anyways like usual I caved and we stayed, I couldnt handle the anxiety and stress.. my stomach is already like swiss cheese due to the alarming number of ulsors due to everything thats been happening.

So two months later brings us to today, we moved!  The only difference is this time since I proved my external family couldnt handle this maturely, we simply didnt tell them.  I know its bad but have you read my posts?  It really was the only option.  Anyways so by the time you read this we are already in Arizona getting settled in, once we get there i'll write a letter to my external family and tell them whats going on.  Coarse they are going to hate me but thats something I have accepted.  If they are reading this, which I doubt, but if they are.. I am sorry, sorry to my sweet sweet sister Marissa, my sister Faye, my brother Joey, my sister-in-law Laura, my nephews Jeffory, Trefor, Tyler, Wilson, Jay-Jay, and my Niece Luci.. I love you all and I will stay in touch.  We'll come back next year and visit, infact I plan on coming to see you all every year.

As for my friends Jason and Justin, I am sorry I didnt tell you sooner, I couldnt risk this secret slipping out.  Not that it would or what not but.. I didnt tell anyone period so dont feel left out.

Anyways now that I opened pandora's box.... the secret's out and no turning back.  I wish this didnt have to be this way but I already tried this the responsible way by telling people weeks in advance but they couldnt handle it maturely.  For those that the immaturity issues doesnt apply, I am so very sorry.

XOXO

Sara