May 18th, 2010

"Congradulations, It's a girl!"

On May 18th, 2010 at 9:00am pst in salem oregon I was pronounced officially and legally female!!  All the obsticles and hurdles before me may have slowed me down but never stopped me, I am now as I will always be...a woman.  With this last legal obsticle/hurdle complete I can now apply for a new job as I am currently unemployed.  Now I will be hired as the woman I should have always been and will always be,  this is a monumentus day for me.  It's been long in the making and I've spent many years of anguish awaiting this day, and now that its here.. I could not be happier!

To all those whom did not think this was real, or that this was a phase... I have nothing more to say since I already said it to begin with.  I do however want to say something else, something important, while my journey isnt finished and I still have a ways to go.  I've always told my kids that they could be anything they wanted to be, until this year (January 1st, 2010) when I began my transition, I was nothing more then a liar and a hypocrit.  I told my children something I personally did not live by or believe.  As of this day I am now living proof that you can actually be anything you want to be.. including whole.  I am now whole, I feel as if half of me that was mising all my life is now with me.  I breath deeply and feel the air fill my lungs as I have never felt before.  The world is brighter and the colors are more viberant, I love my life!

May 14th, 2010

[Insert inspirational phrase]

I know its been a couple days since my last post talking about the hurdle I was having to redo and wait to see if my therapist would take the appropriate steps to finish what we started.  I was very confident he was going to be added to the dmv list, there is no professional reason not to, however he choose not to.  He claimed his supervisor wouldnt let him, which the only way that would be true let alone up to a supervisor is if my therapist wasnt actually licensed and was earning credit hours from a supervisor, or if he had some sort of discimination issue.  I may not ever know which was the true reason for him choosing to see a gender dysphoric patient but unwilling to follow the law (harry benjarmin international standard of care).

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May 6th, 2010

Running Backwards

I know its been a couple days since I blogged but alot has happened so I'll have an even better post today for you.  Ok first off on Saturday - May 1st, 2010 I finally went to the DMV to have my drivers license renewed into my new name (the only name you all know me as), my wife and I spent the morning fussing over what clothes to wear and what colors of make-up.  After we were both gussied up we headed down an hour before they opened so we'd be the first ones in line to make our time there short and simple, and we were the first ones.

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