December 27th, 2010

What's my birthday?

Hi all, sorry I havent written in a long time.  Between moving to Arizona then within Arizona in Peoria to Surprise (yes thats actually the name of the city, Surprise!?), and with the holiday season... well that about sums up my excuses for this month.  Now that the holiday season is over and life returns to normal I can breath and take control of my free time.  So without further adu and no longer guilding the lilly, I bring to you this month's blog post titled, What's my birthday?

Now this post isnt about guessing my birthday or anything its more of a deeper thought into what or when for that matter is my real birthday.  Let me explain: On December 28th, 1976; I was physically born... imperfections and all, so logically my birthday is December 28th?  However on February 2nd, 2010 I began my hormone replacement therapy, transitioning from the man I was forced to be into the woman I was born to be.  So on February 2nd, 2010 I was born again, taking control of my life and doing something about the situation I was in rather then to give up and let the world consume me.

To me February 2nd, 2010 feels more like a real birthday then my original birthday does.  Yes tonmorrow I'll be 34 yet I cant help but ponder the fact that I'll simply be 33 years of numb, lifelessness and 10 months of true life.  I dont like birthdays in general because the only thing you celebrate is how old your getting and while its exciting and great when your young... as you get older it begins to mean less each year.  But a Rebirthday, now that sounds exciting!  A celebration of not how old you are but how much you've accomplished.  A celebration of living proof that you've taken control of your life and against all odds shown the world exactly who you really are!

So this year I am going to celebrate my birthday on my real date of life, the day I took my first true breath.  The day I first opened my eyes to the real world and my true self.  If your in Arizona or will be in the beginning of February 2011, I'd like to invite you to my birthday party.  It will be a celebration of life and ambitions of not only myself but all of those whom have come before me and after to be reborn again.

XO,
Sara