January 17th, 2011

New Year, New Changes, New Job?

As you might recall almost three years ago I injured my back in a car accident and wound up losing my job.  My job was to drive and I wasnt physically able to drive (you may recall from my previous posts) I have been unemployed ever since.  Its not for a lack of trying, ok maybe it was for a little while during my first year of transition due to extreme hormone levels and low self esteem.  But never the less I was actively looking but finding work as a transgender in her first year of transition... well people werent as receptive as we'd all like.  Next month (February 2nd) is my first year of transition (hormone replacement therapy) anniversary/birthday.  With this last year gone by and the hormones have made drastic changes I not only look as I should but I feel wonderful!  So this brings me to the good news that I have been dieing to tell you.  I got a job!!

Ok dont get to excited its only with Wal-mart and its a minimum wage entry position, but its a job!  A fresh start and my first job I have ever had (as a woman), gosh I hope I dont get to friendly at work and tell any of my co-workers of my blog.  See I tend to over share and I get overly friendly, not in a weird way just a happy-go-lucky way.  Anyways so I am 34 and its my first job more or less so its a great start! I feel like a teenager again, but thats probably just the hormones getting me all giddy.

I already did the drug test and am now just waiting for orientation to start, wish me luck because I need it, I have a long ways financially till I can afford my SRS and I needed it done a year ago.  Well thats all for now, love yas!

Sara

December 27th, 2010

What's my birthday?

Hi all, sorry I havent written in a long time.  Between moving to Arizona then within Arizona in Peoria to Surprise (yes thats actually the name of the city, Surprise!?), and with the holiday season... well that about sums up my excuses for this month.  Now that the holiday season is over and life returns to normal I can breath and take control of my free time.  So without further adu and no longer guilding the lilly, I bring to you this month's blog post titled, What's my birthday?

Now this post isnt about guessing my birthday or anything its more of a deeper thought into what or when for that matter is my real birthday.  Let me explain: On December 28th, 1976; I was physically born... imperfections and all, so logically my birthday is December 28th?  However on February 2nd, 2010 I began my hormone replacement therapy, transitioning from the man I was forced to be into the woman I was born to be.  So on February 2nd, 2010 I was born again, taking control of my life and doing something about the situation I was in rather then to give up and let the world consume me.

To me February 2nd, 2010 feels more like a real birthday then my original birthday does.  Yes tonmorrow I'll be 34 yet I cant help but ponder the fact that I'll simply be 33 years of numb, lifelessness and 10 months of true life.  I dont like birthdays in general because the only thing you celebrate is how old your getting and while its exciting and great when your young... as you get older it begins to mean less each year.  But a Rebirthday, now that sounds exciting!  A celebration of not how old you are but how much you've accomplished.  A celebration of living proof that you've taken control of your life and against all odds shown the world exactly who you really are!

So this year I am going to celebrate my birthday on my real date of life, the day I took my first true breath.  The day I first opened my eyes to the real world and my true self.  If your in Arizona or will be in the beginning of February 2011, I'd like to invite you to my birthday party.  It will be a celebration of life and ambitions of not only myself but all of those whom have come before me and after to be reborn again.

XO,
Sara

November 11th, 2010

The End and The Beginning

Its hard knowing just what to say when someone dies, weather they were close to you or someone you barely knew.  Funerals always make me depressed and to bury someone that recently was up and alive, now lifeless and cold.  Well sadness and depression is one thing not happening today!  Today I burried the final remnance of my "brother" (my old self) by finally getting my new glasses!

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November 4th, 2010

New Picture Coming Soon!!

Hi guys, I know I have been talking about it for a while now but its finally coming, new pictures!  I got a cell phone a couple days ago, its the newest andriod phone on the market (OMG I am in love with this phone) effectively its a laptop computer only mini sized with no buttons, the entire screen is a touch pad.  Anyways it has a camera on it thats quality is extremely good.. soo I am having my picture taken but not till my new glasses get here.  I am still wearing my old glasses (men's yuk) so I went and got a new prescription and frames which will be here in 3-7 days.  The frames are pink! and super cute!  So once they get here I'll get all dolled up and snap a few shots for my blog.  Only down side is I havent lost anymore weight since my last picture, the stress of moving and family issues etc etc have only caused me to gain weight.  But now that things have calmed down and I am back in my routine I am loosing weight again so I'll be bikini body ready in a year.  Anyways aside from the new phone, and $400 glasses (ug my pocketbook still hurts) not much else has happened.  Just living life one day at a time and enjoying every minute of my transition.

Its rather rewarding seeing just how much changes from taking estorgen and anti-androgens, I havent talked about detailed changed on my blog yet due to the fact they are rather personal and graphical details.  However, I am thinking of opening an adult section on my blog where I can talk about these things.  Things such as breast growth, muscle growth (in different areas then a man would have) as well as chemical changes I have gone through.  But thats all in consideration and planning, dont know if I will do that or not, post replies here or email me at Saraphiene@live.com and let me know your opinions on this idea.

As always extreme XOXO's to you all,

Sara

October 31st, 2010

A night to remember...

Wel its halloween and I am excited, alot has happened in the past month but it all comes down to what happened last night and what will happen tonight *wink*.  Last night a sweet friend of mine picked me up and took me on a girls night out on the town.  She showed me alot of Phoenix and even took me out to dinner, which by the way I strongly recommend eating at Ticoz Resturaunt in Phoenix!  I was overly nervous that night because the last time I went "out" was my 21st birthday and even that was just to a crappy bar.  Dinner was great and the atmosphere was priceless, the staff was extremely friendly and over all people just seemed to be having a really good time all around.

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